Many say that I am defiant. Defiant in both a good and bad way.
It’s just… I like doing the opposite of what people say that I shouldn’t do or can’t do.
My defiance is what helps me defy the odds.
My defiance is a good quality I possess because I will defy any odd by not listening to what people think I should do or suggest how I should live my life.
I am Defiant and Proud. ~ DoctorK
Today is day two of my water 💦 fast.
Last night my head was killing. I’m not going to lie I wanted to eat just so that I could relieve the pain but I didn’t. I meditated and then took a shower for about an hour. I also meditated in the shower, it definitely helped a great deal. I felt so at is and it probably because my focus was not on my pain but on my breath.
This morning I did feel a little nauseous but a drink of water helped me feel better. Justin really doesn’t like it when I feel bad. He tried to cater to my every need but he knows I am fasting, so the only thing he could do is bring me a class of water. 😊
I must say I had a lot of clarity last night. Visions of the future appeared to me. I have a lot to look forward to and is excited about it.
Oh I forgot, day two last time was horrible. I was weak barely wanted to get up out of bed. I couldn’t even do my workout until later that evening. Because out of no where at the end of the day I got this burst of energy and completed a full body workout. I felt great after I completed my workout. I was ready for the next day. I didn’t get a workout in this morning but I will this evening.
I got this!! Motivated to keep going
Happy Tuesday 😘
So a few weeks back I did a 7 Day Water Fast. It was an amazing feeling and process. I’ve decided to do it again and this time write about.
I tried to do the water fast again last week but I had to pause it due to not feeling well which I believe was due to a die off. When fasting you go through a die off period. A die off means all the toxins and parasites are leaving your body. During this time you get sick with flu like symptoms, break out, have headaches, and it can last for a few days up to a week. My symptoms only lasted for a few days but I decided to just enjoy the week and eat. I did want to give in and take medicine but I did not give in. I got better without taking medicine and allowing my body time to heal with natural foods and water.
Starting Day One Over Again… Not because I wanted to but because I had to get better first. I hope my journey inspire others to give this fast a shot. If not for 7 days but for 1-3 days here and there.
Day 1… So far so good. I feel great. I did eat a large meal this time compared to last time ( I didn’t have a large meal today, I’m taking about yesterday). I don’t have a headache like last time and I’m not as hungry. I am focused again. It seems that eating for me takes away some of my clarity and makes me tired especially heavy foods. I know, I know, you’re probably thinking just eat lighter. It’s truly hard to eat light when you love food so much. I just want to eat and try everything. However, I’ve decided to join the rest of my close family and become either vegetarian or pescatarian.
Not eating meat for an entire week made me feel great. Not eating food period made me feel great. I still had energy but Day one last time was so horrible. I wanted to give up and give in to food. But I would not allow myself to do it. This was about me and getting my body back on track internally. Getting healthy both inside and out, I believe is crucial to any new journey to getting healthy.
I’m not sure what caused me to do a seven day water fast. I do know that when I mastered the 1 and 2 day fast, I wanted to feel that same feeling but longer. So I then decided to do a 7 Day Water Fast, I made the decision the night before, kept it to myself and didn’t tell anyone until the day I started it or when they asked me if I was eating anything.
Clarity, Clarity, Clarity, I gained so much clarity. Doing the water fast, I felt like I had better control over my thoughts and feelings. I was calmer and my perspective on things changed. It really makes you think, what else can the body do without food.
Well I must go now. Stay tune for Day Two.
Life is only hard as you make it out to be. Yes, we go through many things and wonder 🤔 why me? Why not you? What makes you exempt for struggle, pain, and lessons?
Isn’t our struggles what we learn most from. It’s how we get endurance. In therapy, I️ teach my clients to take the hardest struggle they’ve endured and utilize that strength they acquired to get through that struggle and apply to all areas or situations in their life they find difficult. It’s a technique I️ learned in grad school. It’s a technique I’ve been doing for years well before I️ knew it was a technique.
But any who.
Don’t let life be harder than what you may feel it has to be. In the little victories see your strength and continue to build on it.
Positive Readings!
So I decided to share my posted note quotes. Throughout my house I have posted notes of quotes all around. I use them as reminders to keep me positive and focused. So each day I will share one of my post it not quotes. Some of the quotes are written by yours truly and some of course will be written by others.
Positive Readings!!!
Author unknown.
There are many times to where I am amazed at the way Justin thinks. We’ve been talking about doing things that make him happy. At first Justin did not want to do Marching Band. But once he gave it a shot he fell in love with it.
Because the upperclassmen doesn’t like the new Marching Band teacher most of them wants to quit.
So I asked Justin does he want to quit?
His response: ” No, I’m not quitting because I don’t like the teacher, I’m doing Marching Band because I Love Music”
Despite what’s around him he plans to continue to do what he loves. He doesn’t like the negativity of his friends talking about the teacher so he said he just listen and does what’s best for him.
👀😳 I was amazed.
I said Wow Justin, it takes some people years to learn how to do things for what they have a passion for and not follow others.
He said, well you teach me to do what I love and stick to it. You also allow me to be myself and do what makes me happy.
That was truly a proud Mommy moment. Sometimes I question if I’m doing a good job and from the talks of it. I am. 😊
I originally was writing this back in the beginning part of the year.
So far things have and haven’t been going as planned. I was suppose to be well into writing my book, finishing up my meditation course and posting to the site consistently. I failed myself in consistently completed these things. I’ve been hearing lately ” Don’t Give Up. Keep Doing it No Matter What” I’ll have to admit the advice is right. I won’t quit no matter what.
So here’s the update. My outline for the book is complete. I now have a new title for the book and I’m a chapter complete. I’m also working on a second book with a coauthor 😊.
As you can see I’ve been posting to my blog consistently and drum 🥁 🥁🥁🥁🥁 roll please I completed my Meditation Teaching Course!!!!!
So now I’m a Meditation Teacher.
My original plan for this post was to write how I couldn’t keep but but I must keep going. I’m not sure why I didn’t post back then but I guess everything happens for a reason. I needed to post it today.
So I’m Keeping My Word!!! So should you when accomplishing your goals. It may not happen in your timeline just make sure it happens!!
Namaste
It’s okay to get off track sometimes. Just don’t stay off track for to long. It won’t be hard to get back on. It’s just the drive to get there might be a little sluggish making the train ride a little longer than what you expected.
I believe rainbows have now become my new symbol of knowing that all is well. I’ve been becoming more aware of my thoughts. As a result I’ve been becoming more aware of myself. I’m realizing that, I am not who I was a few months ago or weeks ago, or even yesterday despite who reminds me of who I use to be.
Growth can occur daily. Change always takes place when you want change. Some people like to hold onto to who you use to be. Never seeing who you’re becoming. We can get caught up by others hold on to our past selves. I know I’m guilty of it. It’s very frustrating when you’re trying to let go of who you were, when others still hold on to it.
I realized this week to allow them to hold on to what they believe of me because it’s their belief and way of thinking. The only persons thoughts and beliefs I can control is my own.
I am not what people think of me. I am not my negative thoughts. I am every positive thought I perceive myself to be.
Seeing the rainbows today was a reminder that I am on the right thinking and journey path. I am where I need to be.
After a long day, Justin finds great pleasure in laying across my bed and talking to me. He said that there is something about my bed that helps him relax and clear his head. So I told him to relax away.
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