Many say that I am defiant. Defiant in both a good and bad way.
It’s just… I like doing the opposite of what people say that I shouldn’t do or can’t do.
My defiance is what helps me defy the odds.
My defiance is a good quality I possess because I will defy any odd by not listening to what people think I should do or suggest how I should live my life.
I am Defiant and Proud. ~ DoctorK
Today is day two of my water 💦 fast.
Last night my head was killing. I’m not going to lie I wanted to eat just so that I could relieve the pain but I didn’t. I meditated and then took a shower for about an hour. I also meditated in the shower, it definitely helped a great deal. I felt so at is and it probably because my focus was not on my pain but on my breath.
This morning I did feel a little nauseous but a drink of water helped me feel better. Justin really doesn’t like it when I feel bad. He tried to cater to my every need but he knows I am fasting, so the only thing he could do is bring me a class of water. 😊
I must say I had a lot of clarity last night. Visions of the future appeared to me. I have a lot to look forward to and is excited about it.
Oh I forgot, day two last time was horrible. I was weak barely wanted to get up out of bed. I couldn’t even do my workout until later that evening. Because out of no where at the end of the day I got this burst of energy and completed a full body workout. I felt great after I completed my workout. I was ready for the next day. I didn’t get a workout in this morning but I will this evening.
I got this!! Motivated to keep going
Happy Tuesday 😘
There will be little bumps, hiccups, and unexpectedness that will have you slowing down in life. You will never be prepared for them but when they arrive give in. Reflect and slow down.
I believe rainbows have now become my new symbol of knowing that all is well. I’ve been becoming more aware of my thoughts. As a result I’ve been becoming more aware of myself. I’m realizing that, I am not who I was a few months ago or weeks ago, or even yesterday despite who reminds me of who I use to be.
Growth can occur daily. Change always takes place when you want change. Some people like to hold onto to who you use to be. Never seeing who you’re becoming. We can get caught up by others hold on to our past selves. I know I’m guilty of it. It’s very frustrating when you’re trying to let go of who you were, when others still hold on to it.
I realized this week to allow them to hold on to what they believe of me because it’s their belief and way of thinking. The only persons thoughts and beliefs I can control is my own.
I am not what people think of me. I am not my negative thoughts. I am every positive thought I perceive myself to be.
Seeing the rainbows today was a reminder that I am on the right thinking and journey path. I am where I need to be.
Yesterday, my sisters and I had the great pleasure of spending time with Baby Kennedi together. She was very cranky which we believe was because she was gassy and not moving her bowels easily. So we each took turns rocking her and calming her. However, it seemed that every time I rocked her she would calm down faster and fall asleep faster.
My middle sister kept laughing and saying it’s because you have the twin connection with her dad. So she’s use to your touch 🤦🏽♀️. It really makes you wonder, can a baby realize that there is a twin connection between their parent and their twin? ( I hope that makes sense)
When Justin was a baby he did have a great relationship with my brother. They spent a lot of time together and still do. My twin was the first male in Justin’s life and is who he remembers when he was young. I remember them always laughing together and relaxing together. If I recall well I believe my brothers name was his first word ” Keith”. Yup! He said Keith before he said Mom. Justin didn’t say mom until he was three and half almost four. I longed to hear those words but he knew who I was.
When Justin was little they said he looked like my brother and now that Kennedi is here, I’m getting that she looks like me.
What are the odds? Lol.
Hmmm, I still wonder. I guess I continue to test the theory with Kennedi and reflect back to when Justin was little.
What do you guys think?
So today is my and my twin brothers birthday. My grandmother asked me on Friday what was I doing. I said ” Oh I’m getting a massage, going to dinner, and hanging out with a friend afterwards”.
She then says ” What is your brother doing? ” 🤷🏽♀️ I said ” I don’t know”
She then proceed to say ” maybe he’s doing something for the weekend” . I replied ” yea, maybe”
So I decided to call my brother to find out who’s keeping the baby and asked him, What do you have planned for our birthday this weekend?
He said ” well I have to work on our birthday but this weekend I’m going to get a massage, going to dinner, and relaxing with my girlfriend”
I swear we have a twin connection being the opposite sex and all.
What are the odds? lol.
I can write forever about my relationship with my brother. One thing for sure is that I love him with all my heart. We’ve seen each other through the best and worse of our lives. We will always be there for each other no matter what.
Don’t be consume by the negative people and energy that will or may be around you. Have you ever noticed you was in a good mood and someone comes around you that is not in a good mood, and then all of a sudden you’re now in the same mood as them?
Well, that’s transference of energy. I learned about this many years ago and realized that many of my bad days weren’t really my bad days. I was just identifying and absorbing the energy that’s around me.
Not all negative energy is bad from my own experience of it. I can sense what a person needs based on their energy. I know how to now truly engage in a situation by feeling the energy of the person I’m around. I know when the emotion is a I need help sad emotion that may be seen as negative or when it’s I just want to complain because this is my mood and I’m stuck ways negative emotions.
In both situations you can be understanding by listening, pray for the person, and then reflect on the moment realizing your own inner peace. They way I found myself always getting sucked into these emotions is by immediately identifying with the person. This way they knew I was able to relate to them. I didn’t realize I was taking away their story by personalizing and now embodying their energy.
Think about it!! How many conversations had you had that you’d identify with then feeling the same as that person because you remember old feelings?
Yup we all do it, so don’t feel bad about it just be mindful of it.
Happy Monday! 😘
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Today I had the pleasure of meeting and speaking to a young business mom. She recalled me being in her store from a month prior. I was surprised she remembered me. It was great seeing her again because as we talked, she said that I inspired her when actually she inspired me.
As I told her about myself. I realized all that I had going on and all of the things that I need to finish into completion. I realized that my service is greatly needed and my voice needs to be heard. She inspired me to continue and to get a move on things.
The funny thing is, if Justin had not reminded me that I promised to take him to that store today I wouldn’t have gone. Also, If I didn’t have car trouble earlier in the day, I would have been in session with a client.
It’s amazing how the universe works.
So I forgot to post my update and my progress. Things are going great. I think it takes 21 Days to really get your mind prepared and ready for the changes you will make in your life. The first few days I’ll admit was a rough start and as you guys know I was ready to start again. But I didn’t and I’m glad I didn’t.
I think if I had restarted I would have restarted over and over again, because I would have felt like I was doing it wrong or I wasn’t giving my all. When in reality I was. I needed to just go with the flow of things.
In the 21 days I lost 11 pounds. I gained motivation. I have more energy. I feel a lot better despite getting sick a bit. I’m even more determined more now than before. 
I’ve also started meditating more as I wanted to. I’m back to reading and listening to my positive talks again. I’m changing my thinking and the people I allow to consume my space and energy.
So I decided to continue with 21 days and now go into the 90 days to make it a lifestyle.
Today is day 25 of 90. I’m so ready for the road ahead.
Lifestyle Change * Thinking Change* Professional and Meditation Practice Change*
Surroundings Change* Physical Change*
Changing what needs to be Changed* 😊
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