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Today I had the pleasure of meeting and speaking to a young business mom. She recalled me being in her store from a month prior. I was surprised she remembered me. It was great seeing her again because as we talked, she said that I inspired her when actually she inspired me.

As I told her about myself. I realized all that I had going on and all of the things that I need to finish into completion. I realized that my service is greatly needed and my voice needs to be heard. She inspired me to continue and to get a move on things.

The funny thing is, if Justin had not reminded me that I promised to take him to that store today I wouldn’t have gone. Also, If I didn’t have car trouble earlier in the day, I would have been in session with a client.

It’s amazing how the universe works.

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My sister is living in her purpose and has become a photographer. Today Justin will have a photo shoot with her capturing all of emotions he goes through throughout the day. I didn’t tell him about until Just now and boy oh boy I can feel the anxieties flowing.

He’s like:

What is it for?

What do I have to do?

Is this for the blog?

What emotions should I do?

I’m sure in his mind he’s really like, you pulled me out of Band practice for this! When I told him it was for a project, he said okay. But I can still feel his anxiety. I’m very mindful of what I say and how I say things to him. I don’t dismiss my emotions because I’m entitled to feel the way I do they same way I allow him to express them.

On another note. Wish us Luck! Today will be a great day because I Believe it will be. 😊

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So here’s an update of my progress.

So far I’m down 4lbs in 8 days. 😊👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾. I’m very proud of myself. I believed I’ve hit a plateau but I guess I did not. I’m glad to see progress no matter how small it is. So I am now 232. My goal is 210 by my birthday in 27 days. I may not reach the goal by my target 🎯 date but it will be reached no matter what. I won’t give up on myself.

I still have been eating late and that’s only because I haven’t been eating much during the day. But I have been working out, Meditating, and Practicing Mindfulness daily. It feels good to be consistent with things and make the changes I wish to make for myself.

Continue to wish me luck!!! I’ll be back with an update in a few day

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So over the past months now. I’ve been  making necessary changes to my life and routines. I’m eating clean now, working out more, meditating daily (sometimes I don’t because I don’t make time for it but now I’m back on track). I’ve gotten my hyperthyroidism together so now my focus back. When my levels are up I lose all my focus and become really irritable. My heart rate is always racing, pressure is up, and I’m mean as all hell.

My heart rate when my levels are up. I know not good at all. I was just sitting down.

I’ve been stable for the past five months now. I truly believe it’s due to me reducing what causes me stress and changing my eating habits. My skin is clearer

I have a lot more energy and I feel like my old self. I’m praying I can continue my progress. Let me rephrase that, I’m confident I will continue with my progress. This is all a part of my growth.

I know many do not agree with me stopping all of my medication but I have not needed them and have chosen a holistic path to my healing. I believe that this was the route for me to go being that during the time the doctors was suppose to give me radiation to shrink my thyroid my blood work can back normal so they did not need to give me the radiation. They can only give you radiation if your level as are high. My levels in a matter of a few days normalized and they explained to me that, that what happened to me has never happened before so I’d said it was definitely a sign.

I’ve read and heard many horror stories about having the thyroid removed and getting radiation. I was advised not go to through with it but I thought maybe I should being that I couldn’t control my symptoms. It appears the universe had a different plan for me. I’m glad things worked out the way they did. My doctor wasn’t too happy. He wanted me to still take medicine when my levels wasn’t up. The Physician assistant was trying to talk to him and tell him that he should allow me to go an all natural way if that’s my choosing being that research shows it can go away naturally. He was not having it and neither was I. I haven’t been back since. I only see my primary doctor now. He listens to my concerns and allows me to take the best approach for me while monitoring my health.

Make sure you get a doctor who listens and not tell you what to do.

I’ve also stopped putting harsh Chemicals in my hair. I’m all natural. No more relaxers that will fry my scalp and brain. 😍.

Relax vs. Natural.

I’m loving the skin I’m in.

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I’ve decided to write Justin short letter picture quotes from me. I would like for it to be some thing that he can read throughout life to know my thinking process as his mom and to use it for encouragement when life gets the bear of him. Life wasn’t always easy for us and to this day we still have our moments. The world around us seem to be cruel and unfair to those of color. Some may not agree or thing so but it’s the truth.

As Justin watch the news he have questions that are only right for him to ask. Why are things so unfair for those who are black? Why are so many black people being murdered by cops? Why are black people judged so much when people of other races can do the same thing we do? The list of why’s continues. Some days I have straight forward answers while other days I don’t because I get frustrated having to explain to my son that life isn’t fair to people of color due to history. Some history isn’t told accurately while others is. I also explain to him that just because society is filled with greed, hate, and people’s need to control. We don’t stoop down to ignorance because we are better than what we are hated for.

Despite, what I say the world displays reasons why he should still question things and be mindful when he leaves the house, because life just isn’t fair to blacks no matter how free we are.

Happy Reading Justin.

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For the past four years I've known I wanted to pursue my Doctorates just haven't quite made the time for it. Now I have made the time and will be making the resources available for myself to do so.

Sometimes we have to sacrifice the little things in order to get to greater things in life.

At this moment I'm applying to school and taking the necessary steps to get to my next level. I know I'll get there. It's just a matter of time. My goals is to complete my Doctorates by the time my son graduates High School. I know it's a goal that's going to be a challenge due to my schedule but it's a goal I'm willing to put to the test.

I will do this and give it my all.

Future: Dr. K White

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Today, We decided to food shop, clean, relax, play games, go to the movies, and do lunch. Which won't be all in that order but it's going to take place today.

He's so much taller than I am. I miss him being my size or smaller. I'm glad he's back home. I've missed him being home. He came back a little anxious about school and friendships but we worked out his worries. I make sure I make it easy for him to come to me with anything he has going on in his mind. I try my best not to be his therapist but be his Mom with a lot of understanding.

He appreciates it. I'm glad my own personal and professional growth has changed me enough to be a better person for him.

He will always be one of my reasons why I do what I do. I love being his Mom 😊

The Emoji Movies was good. Go Check it out.

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In the Night of the Moon.
She Embraced her Inner and Outer Beauty.
She Fell in Love with Herself.
For it was not easy to Love Every Aspect of her Skin.
But She Learned and Slowly Allowed Her Feelings To Be.
She Knew that She must First Adore Herself Within.
Now that She's in Love.
She Can't Seem to Let Go Of
All She's Was Destined to Become
All Because She Fell In Love With Herself.

A Mother’s Love

In honor of Mother’s Day, I decided to write a post thanking the many moms in my life who supported me during my hardest times.  Justin’s diagnosis was not something I took easily. It was some of the hardest news I had to take. Although, sometimes  I thought I was alone on my journey, somehow I always knew that I had a support team like no other. Thank You Fellow Moms!!

First,  I would like to thank my mother. She stood by side no matter what I went through. She listened even when I didn’t speak, but knew exactly what I needed. She’s the confidant that both Justin and I need. I love the relationship she has with Justin. Since his birth she’s always protected him. However, since his diagnosis, she has been his bodyguard. She made sure no harm whatsoever was inflicted on him. Because of her love, she is his best friend. She’s his go to person. He loves her just as much as I do. She is, as I call her, “The love of his life”.

Next, I would like to thank my sisters. They were both moms before me. I’m the youngest sister. I learned a lot about motherhood from watching them with their children. I also learned by playing the auntie role. When Justin was diagnosed they both were there in their own way. They provided me with support that I will never forget. They were my strength during the times I did not want to be strong. They encouraged me when I needed encouraging. They stepped in while I was in school studying for my Bachelors and Masters. I’m so grateful for them.

Now, I would like to thank my aunts, female cousins, and girlfriends for being distantly there. They knew how to be there by giving me my space. Because I am not that open with my  feelings, they knew time is what I needed most. I needed time to myself to process what I was going through. Talking about it only would make me feel worse.  So, I preferred not to speak until now. Again, I thank my aunts, cousins, and friends for being there to listen for when I was ready to talk.

Finally, I send a special thank you to the moms I’ve had a chance to meet and converse with thus far. It was these random talks that helped me reflect on my life. I realized how blessed I was and still am. I realize things might have gone completely differently had a chose a other ways of handling things. I am truly grateful for each moment and each person. Thank you!

Happy Mothers Day!!

Justin and My Mom