Many say that I am defiant. Defiant in both a good and bad way.
It’s just… I like doing the opposite of what people say that I shouldn’t do or can’t do.
My defiance is what helps me defy the odds.
My defiance is a good quality I possess because I will defy any odd by not listening to what people think I should do or suggest how I should live my life.
I am Defiant and Proud. ~ DoctorK
Sometimes, I️ think Justin thinks I’m not watching or aware of what he’s going through. I️ see and know when things are a challenge. I️ also Know when he’s going to have a hard day. I️ just remain and present, so when he needs I’m always right in front of him watching and waiting for him to say “Mom”…
I believe that if you put your mind to it you can do achieve anything you wish.
You can and you will!!!
I can and I will!!
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Positive Readings!
There will be little bumps, hiccups, and unexpectedness that will have you slowing down in life. You will never be prepared for them but when they arrive give in. Reflect and slow down.
There are many times to where I am amazed at the way Justin thinks. We’ve been talking about doing things that make him happy. At first Justin did not want to do Marching Band. But once he gave it a shot he fell in love with it.
Because the upperclassmen doesn’t like the new Marching Band teacher most of them wants to quit.
So I asked Justin does he want to quit?
His response: ” No, I’m not quitting because I don’t like the teacher, I’m doing Marching Band because I Love Music”
Despite what’s around him he plans to continue to do what he loves. He doesn’t like the negativity of his friends talking about the teacher so he said he just listen and does what’s best for him.
👀😳 I was amazed.
I said Wow Justin, it takes some people years to learn how to do things for what they have a passion for and not follow others.
He said, well you teach me to do what I love and stick to it. You also allow me to be myself and do what makes me happy.
That was truly a proud Mommy moment. Sometimes I question if I’m doing a good job and from the talks of it. I am. 😊
I believe rainbows have now become my new symbol of knowing that all is well. I’ve been becoming more aware of my thoughts. As a result I’ve been becoming more aware of myself. I’m realizing that, I am not who I was a few months ago or weeks ago, or even yesterday despite who reminds me of who I use to be.
Growth can occur daily. Change always takes place when you want change. Some people like to hold onto to who you use to be. Never seeing who you’re becoming. We can get caught up by others hold on to our past selves. I know I’m guilty of it. It’s very frustrating when you’re trying to let go of who you were, when others still hold on to it.
I realized this week to allow them to hold on to what they believe of me because it’s their belief and way of thinking. The only persons thoughts and beliefs I can control is my own.
I am not what people think of me. I am not my negative thoughts. I am every positive thought I perceive myself to be.
Seeing the rainbows today was a reminder that I am on the right thinking and journey path. I am where I need to be.
Yesterday, my sisters and I had the great pleasure of spending time with Baby Kennedi together. She was very cranky which we believe was because she was gassy and not moving her bowels easily. So we each took turns rocking her and calming her. However, it seemed that every time I rocked her she would calm down faster and fall asleep faster.
My middle sister kept laughing and saying it’s because you have the twin connection with her dad. So she’s use to your touch 🤦🏽♀️. It really makes you wonder, can a baby realize that there is a twin connection between their parent and their twin? ( I hope that makes sense)
When Justin was a baby he did have a great relationship with my brother. They spent a lot of time together and still do. My twin was the first male in Justin’s life and is who he remembers when he was young. I remember them always laughing together and relaxing together. If I recall well I believe my brothers name was his first word ” Keith”. Yup! He said Keith before he said Mom. Justin didn’t say mom until he was three and half almost four. I longed to hear those words but he knew who I was.
When Justin was little they said he looked like my brother and now that Kennedi is here, I’m getting that she looks like me.
What are the odds? Lol.
Hmmm, I still wonder. I guess I continue to test the theory with Kennedi and reflect back to when Justin was little.
What do you guys think?
So today is my and my twin brothers birthday. My grandmother asked me on Friday what was I doing. I said ” Oh I’m getting a massage, going to dinner, and hanging out with a friend afterwards”.
She then says ” What is your brother doing? ” 🤷🏽♀️ I said ” I don’t know”
She then proceed to say ” maybe he’s doing something for the weekend” . I replied ” yea, maybe”
So I decided to call my brother to find out who’s keeping the baby and asked him, What do you have planned for our birthday this weekend?
He said ” well I have to work on our birthday but this weekend I’m going to get a massage, going to dinner, and relaxing with my girlfriend”
I swear we have a twin connection being the opposite sex and all.
What are the odds? lol.
I can write forever about my relationship with my brother. One thing for sure is that I love him with all my heart. We’ve seen each other through the best and worse of our lives. We will always be there for each other no matter what.
Don’t be consume by the negative people and energy that will or may be around you. Have you ever noticed you was in a good mood and someone comes around you that is not in a good mood, and then all of a sudden you’re now in the same mood as them?
Well, that’s transference of energy. I learned about this many years ago and realized that many of my bad days weren’t really my bad days. I was just identifying and absorbing the energy that’s around me.
Not all negative energy is bad from my own experience of it. I can sense what a person needs based on their energy. I know how to now truly engage in a situation by feeling the energy of the person I’m around. I know when the emotion is a I need help sad emotion that may be seen as negative or when it’s I just want to complain because this is my mood and I’m stuck ways negative emotions.
In both situations you can be understanding by listening, pray for the person, and then reflect on the moment realizing your own inner peace. They way I found myself always getting sucked into these emotions is by immediately identifying with the person. This way they knew I was able to relate to them. I didn’t realize I was taking away their story by personalizing and now embodying their energy.
Think about it!! How many conversations had you had that you’d identify with then feeling the same as that person because you remember old feelings?
Yup we all do it, so don’t feel bad about it just be mindful of it.
Happy Monday! 😘
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